Relief?If they seem so hard to reach?
Closing your eyes really hard and wishing like crazy sadly wouldn't move anything.
Waking up and having things changed, wouldn't that be beautiful?
But also too easy I suppose. There's no relief in this, no actual achievement. Though it would still be good...
For things you really really want, if you work hard for them , they feel double good, don't they?
But what if it looks bad...and all hard work in the world cannot change it?
Maybe go on and try to be lucky.
Aren't we all lucky sometimes?
So, devotion, hard work and stamina seem to be the way.
But when is the point reached, where you realise that it is useless?
Do you ever reach this point?
Can you go on until you die? Even if you are blessed with a long life?
It's silly to ask those questions isn't it?
We are humans. We just do whatever we think suits best. We cannot ever answer these questions.
But they still wander through my mind and I desperatly wished I had answers.
What to do? Where to go? I know what is most valuable to me in life, what I want to achievem. I have ideals and principles I try to follow.
I suppose this is already something I should be greatful for. Many don't have/know this.
But still I come to these crossroads every so often. And as I am really bad in orientating myself in the proper world and chosing the right paths, I seem to be just as bad in an abstract way. But regret is utterly useless. To wish to learn from experience is good. But regret? Past is past. No regret could ever change it. But I do still regret. I wish I could change things. I wish I could atone for some things. Or make them good again.
But how could I ever find something that can even out things I did it the past? I don't think I really can. Those things remain. They are the past. They are unalterable.
There's only one word left for me to say!
Meouw!
Humanity is Madness
